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I’m trying to hold my breath
Let it stay this way
Can’t let this moment end
You set off a dream in me
Getting louder now
Can you hear it echoing?
Take my hand
Will you share this with me?
‘Cause darling, without you
All the shine of a thousand spotlights
All the stars we steal from the night sky
Will never be enough
Never be enough
Towers of gold are still too little
These hands could hold the world but it’ll
Never be enough
Never be enough
For me
Never, never
Never, never
Never, for me
For me
Never enough
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All the stars we steal from the night sky
Will never be enough
Never be enough
Towers of gold are still too little
These hands could hold the world but it’ll
Never be enough
Never be enough
For me
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Never Enough: My Personal Journey of Thirsting for God
There are songs that speak to you, and then there are songs that become an extension of your very being. For me, “Never Enough” from The Greatest Showman doesn’t just resonate — it reverberates through the depths of my soul. It’s as though the lyrics mirror the quiet, unspoken longing within me, a yearning that I can never seem to quench. Every word feels like a whisper from my heart, revealing a deeper, more profound thirst for something beyond the material world. It isn’t fame, success, or recognition that I crave; it is something far more elusive yet far more real — my thirst for God.
This song, with all its grandeur and aching emotion, echoes my personal journey. It embodies my search for meaning, my striving for fulfillment, and the realization that nothing in this world will ever satisfy my soul’s deepest longings. This is the story of that journey — a story of yearning for the Divine.
The Mirage of “Enough”
I grew up believing that satisfaction was something you could attain through hard work, through accomplishments, through reaching the next milestone. Society taught me that success would lead to fulfillment, that the more I achieved, the more content I would become. Like many, I embarked on this journey — an unrelenting chase after more. More success, more recognition, more validation. I chased after these things with fervor, thinking they would finally fill the void within me.
But each time I reached a new height, I found myself still thirsty. That fleeting joy of achievement would vanish like a mirage in the desert. I would stand at the top of yet another mountain, but instead of fulfillment, I felt a deeper emptiness. It was never enough.
The words from Never Enough — “Towers of gold are still too little. These hands could hold the world, but it’ll never be enough” — resonate deeply within me. It’s not just about material wealth or ambition. It’s about the human experience, the soul’s craving for something eternal. This world, with all its grandeur, all its towers of gold, could never fill that space inside me reserved for something far more profound — my connection to the Divine.
Worldly Success and the Spiritual Abyss
My journey as a Quran-believer brought me face to face with the Quranic teachings about the fleeting nature of the world. The Quran repeatedly reminds us that this life is an adornment, a fleeting diversion. In Surah Al-Hadid, it says, “Know that the life of this world is but amusement and diversion and adornment and boasting…” (57:20). These words are more than just a caution; they are a deep truth about the human condition. The life we are conditioned to pursue — wealth, success, and recognition — is ultimately empty without a spiritual anchor.
I have been in the world of technology and innovation, constantly pushing boundaries, striving for more, creating things that others admire. I thought that by building something significant, I could satisfy that part of me that was always thirsty. But behind every triumph, there was still an unrelenting void. I was like a man trying to drink from an empty well, never finding water, never quenching that deeper thirst.
The Quran warns us not to be distracted by the things of this world. It says, “Do not let your possessions or your children distract you from the remembrance of God” (63:9). For me, this wasn’t about materialism per se; it was about the illusion that external achievements could fill the emptiness within. The more I sought validation from the outside world, the more I realized how far I was drifting from the only source that could truly satisfy me — God.
A Moment of Clarity: My Soul’s True Desire
I will never forget the moment when it all became clear to me. It was after yet another achievement, another milestone in my career that should have left me feeling proud and fulfilled. But instead, I found myself alone, in the quiet, with a gnawing emptiness that I could no longer ignore. It was as if my soul was crying out, “Is this all there is? Is this what you thought would complete you?”
I sat there, feeling as though I had the world at my fingertips, and yet I was parched, spiritually dehydrated. It was then that I realized something profound: all this time, I had been seeking fulfillment in the wrong place. I had been chasing outwardly for something that could only be found within. My soul wasn’t thirsty for success or recognition. It was thirsty for God.
The Quranic verse that says, “Verily, in the remembrance of God do hearts find rest” (13:28), began to resonate with me in a way it never had before. It wasn’t peace or rest that I lacked; it was the remembrance of God. All this time, I had been searching for the wrong kind of fulfillment. What I truly desired — what my soul craved — was a deep, unbreakable connection with the Divine.
A Turning Point: Seeking God Over the World
From that moment on, something shifted inside me. I began to turn inward, focusing less on the validation of the world and more on my personal relationship with God. But this shift wasn’t easy. The world still pulls at me, whispering promises of more success, more achievement, more recognition. It tells me I will never be enough unless I keep striving for its approval. But I know better now.
As a Quran-believer, I return to the Quran for guidance, and its message has become clearer than ever. This world is temporary, a mere distraction. Real success — true fulfillment — comes from closeness to God. I read the verse from Surah An-Nahl: “Whoever does righteousness, whether male or female, while they are a believer — We will surely cause them to live a good life” (16:97). This verse reminds me that the “good life” is not one of material wealth or worldly success. It is a life filled with righteousness, purpose, and the remembrance of God.
The Ongoing Struggle: Finding Balance
But even with this clarity, the struggle is far from over. Every day, I find myself wrestling with the lure of the material world. It’s easy to fall back into old patterns, to believe that success or recognition will finally make me feel whole. And every time, I am reminded — like the haunting chorus of Never Enough — that it will never be enough.
I have had to learn a new way of living, one where my passions and my work are not ends in themselves but tools for a greater purpose. My love for technology, my desire to build and create, are now part of my spiritual journey. They serve a higher goal — bringing me closer to God, aligning my work with His will.
Resting in the Divine
If Never Enough has taught me anything, it’s this: the world will never provide the fulfillment I seek. It will always dangle something else in front of me, some new goal, some higher achievement, and tell me that if I can just attain that, I will finally be satisfied. But that satisfaction never comes. It will never be enough.
The only thing that will ever quench my thirst is God. My journey is ongoing, but I have learned that my soul’s deepest longing can only be satisfied by the One who created it. No amount of success, no recognition from the world, will ever compare to the peace and fulfillment that come from knowing God.
The Quran comforts me in this understanding, reminding me that this world’s fleeting nature is part of its design. It is a test, and the real prize lies in the hereafter. Until then, I will continue to thirst for God, knowing that He is the only One who can truly satisfy the longing in my soul.
Epilogue
I write these words not just for myself, but for anyone who feels as I do. If you, too, are thirsting for something deeper, if you have chased the world and found it lacking, know that you are not alone. The world can never be enough, but God can. Seek Him, and you will find the fulfillment your soul has been searching for all along.
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Tak Pernah Cukup: Perjalanan Pribadi Saya yang Dahaga Akan Tuhan
Ada lagu yang hanya sekadar bicara kepada kita, dan ada lagu yang menjadi cermin jiwa. Bagi saya, “Never Enough” dari The Greatest Showman adalah yang kedua. Setiap liriknya seperti bisikan hati yang mengungkapkan kerinduan terpendam - sebuah dahaga yang melampaui hal-hal duniawi. Bukan ketenaran, kesuksesan, atau pengakuan yang saya cari, melainkan sesuatu yang lebih halus namun jauh lebih nyata: kedekatan dengan Tuhan.
Fatamorgana Kepuasan
Seperti kebanyakan orang, saya dibesarkan dengan keyakinan bahwa kepuasan bisa diraih melalui kerja keras dan pencapaian. Masyarakat mengajarkan bahwa kesuksesan membawa kebahagiaan - semakin banyak yang kita capai, semakin puas kita akan merasa. Maka saya pun memulai pengejaran tanpa akhir akan “lebih”: lebih banyak kesuksesan, lebih banyak pengakuan, lebih banyak pembenaran diri.
Namun setiap kali mencapai puncak baru, dahaga itu tetap ada. Kegembiraan pencapaian lenyap secepat fatamorgana di padang pasir. Berdiri di puncak gunung, yang saya rasakan justru kekosongan yang lebih dalam. Tak pernah cukup.
Lirik Never Enough menggetarkan jiwa saya: “Menara emas pun masih terlalu sedikit. Tangan ini bisa menggenggam dunia, tapi itu tak akan pernah cukup.” Ini bukan sekadar tentang kekayaan atau ambisi. Ini tentang jiwa manusia yang merindukan sesuatu yang kekal - ruang dalam diri yang hanya bisa diisi oleh Yang Ilahi.
Pelajaran dari Al-Quran
Sebagai seorang pengiman Al-Quran, Al-Quran memberikan saya perspektif yang mendalam tentang kefanaan dunia. Surah Al-Hadid mengingatkan: “Ketahuilah bahwa kehidupan dunia hanyalah permainan dan senda gurau, perhiasan dan bermegah-megahan…” (57:20)
Saya merasakan kebenaran ini dalam karir teknologi saya. Setiap inovasi dan pencapaian yang dikagumi orang lain tak pernah benar-benar memuaskan dahaga spiritual saya. Seperti orang yang mencoba minum dari sumur kosong - tak pernah menemukan air yang dapat melepaskan haus.
Al-Quran memperingatkan: “Janganlah harta bendamu dan anak-anakmu melalaikanmu dari mengingat Tuhan” (63:9). Ini bukan sekadar peringatan tentang materialisme, tapi tentang ilusi bahwa pencapaian eksternal bisa mengisi kekosongan batin.
Titik Balik
Pencerahan datang setelah sebuah pencapaian besar dalam karir - momen yang seharusnya membuat saya bangga dan terpenuhi. Namun dalam kesendirian, saya justru berhadapan dengan kekosongan yang tak bisa lagi diabaikan. Jiwa saya seolah berteriak: “Apakah ini semua? Inikah yang kau pikir akan melengkapimu?”
Ayat “Ketahuilah bahwa dengan mengingat Tuhan hati menjadi tenang” (13:28) akhirnya meresap ke dalam jiwa dengan cara yang berbeda. Yang kurang bukanlah kedamaian atau ketenangan, melainkan pengingat akan Tuhan. Selama ini saya mencari jenis kepuasan yang salah.
Menemukan Keseimbangan
Perubahan ini membawa tantangan tersendiri. Dunia masih menarik saya dengan janji-janjinya tentang kesuksesan dan pengakuan. Tapi kini saya memahami bahwa “kehidupan yang baik” yang dijanjikan Al-Quran (16:97) bukanlah tentang kekayaan materi, melainkan kehidupan yang dipenuhi kebenaran, tujuan, dan ingatan akan Tuhan.
Saya belajar cara baru untuk hidup - di mana hasrat dan pekerjaan bukan lagi tujuan akhir, melainkan sarana menuju tujuan yang lebih tinggi. Kecintaan pada teknologi dan kreativitas kini menjadi bagian dari perjalanan spiritual, sebuah jalan untuk mendekat kepada-Nya.
Menemukan Kecukupan dalam Yang Tak Terbatas
Never Enough mengajarkan saya satu hal: dunia tidak akan pernah memberikan kepuasan yang saya cari. Dunia akan selalu menggoda dengan tujuan-tujuan baru, pencapaian yang lebih tinggi, dengan janji bahwa “kali ini akan cukup.” Tapi kepuasan itu tidak pernah datang.
Satu-satunya yang bisa memuaskan dahaga ini adalah Tuhan. Perjalanan masih berlanjut, tapi saya telah memahami bahwa kerinduan terdalam jiwa hanya bisa dipuaskan oleh Yang Menciptakannya. Tak ada kesuksesan atau pengakuan dunia yang bisa dibandingkan dengan kedamaian dari mengenal-Nya.
Epilog
Jika Anda juga merasakan dahaga akan sesuatu yang lebih dalam, jika Anda telah mengejar dunia dan menemukan bahwa itu tidak memadai - ketahuilah bahwa Anda tidak sendirian. Dunia memang tidak akan pernah cukup. Tapi Tuhan selalu cukup.